So I guess, that it's about damn time that I updated my journal. I just haven't been inspired to write lately. Honestly I'm not feeling very "inspired" right but I'm sorta forcing myself to give my journal a hug and TYPE! Ok so, FROM THE TOP!:

~ I'll give you a quick run down on m Saturday 17th B-day outting. I really really liked China Grill. It was everything I expected and more, cool place, cool food and cool people.

Entrees ordered:

- Barbecued Salmon

- Soy Marinated Steak

- Two orders of Garlic Shrimp

- Saucheoun Steak

- AND upon request of Melissa Aguilar...Duck! That's right DUCK, as in ::quack quack:: I was hesitant to try it at first but in the end it was a good choice. Please people, don't feel sorry for our feathered friends when they are so tasty. =P

Of course the best part of the night was...that's right, you guessed it, THE BILL! The nice big check of $507, that is. I know it's a lot, and it's an even bigger headache when you're trying to divide it between 13 people!

After that financial disaster we headed to the beach, layed out the blanket under the stars and sipped on our Malibu. Though we lacked ICE the Malibu still tasted good as usual.

Funny memories include me and Jessie dramatically running into the ocean; Stephanie Aldana's desire for more chopsticks; my cousin, Alex and Jessica's adventure to the parking meter which was already set (don't ask); and me smacking andy's head as he tried to kiss annie (sorry dude, it was kinda disturbing). All in all, another awesome birthday!

~  I'm really enjoying my new job. It's not too much work but just enough so that I'm not bored. =)

~  Friends ended on Thursday as I wiped the tears off my pathetic face. You know, Dee was right. It is one of those things you take for granted. "...but you don't know what you got 'till it's gone".  Anyway, on less corny note, I did like the way the show ended. I thought it was sweet and appropriate. Just one complaint, and it's not "the Friends'" fault. All I've seen on TV since Thursday from MTV to the freaking FOOD Network is FRIENDS! Guys, you're gonna kill it. I get it, it ended...people, let it go...it's time to move on. And yet, I feel ya'll...F.R.I.E.N.D.S FOREVER!!! ::Ahem::

~ My most recent accomplishment: I FINALLY HAVE A CELL! Geez, I think I was the only girl over the age of 12 that didn't have one! But since, I got a job now, I went out today and got one. I have a Sprint Samsung cam. phone. It's purdy, I really like it. So if you want my number, and I know you do, just ask.

~ And finally, I'd  like to say HAPPY MAMA'S DAY to all the mamas reading this, which would be...none. But tell your mama I said Happy Mama's Day anyway.

Sorry this entry sucked so much, there'll be a better one soon LoL. Laterz!

*::*KaY*::*

Happy Birthday to me...
17...one year closer to freedom...

So if you haven't noticed, today on this 1st day of the month of May in the year 2004, IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! YAY FOR ME!!!

Plans for today...
- I STILL have not bought an outfit to wear for tonight so that is a must!  Emergency Westland run!

- But first, I must pass by my granny's house in order to recieve the birthday MONEY I plan on using for this outfit.

- Next, at 5:00 I have an appointment at a day spa for my very first aromatherapy massage. That's a present from my mommy. =)

- I should be outta there by 6:30 and heading home to get dressed for my outting tonight.

- I told my peeps to meet at my house @ 7 in order to have them here sometime before 8. I know people... So they should be arriving between 7-8.

- 8:15, I'M OUT! South Beach on a Saturday night is packed with people! Reservations at China Grill are for 9!

- Everyone who's meeting us there should be there by 9:30 and so then we'll begin this wallet busting experience that is ordering at China Grill. But hey you guys, do it for me, it's my birthday...=)

- After we unbutton our pants inorder for our bloated tummies to fit, we'll take a walk down Ocean Drive and bust out the Malibu and the blankets and head to the sand. It'll be a romantic evening for a bunch of single dorks! LoL

That's about all of my b-day plans. Sounds good to me. Now re-cap on last night which was the night my peeps from church were supposed to take me out...IT SUCKED!!! My father sucks, that is. During the last 5 min. of our youth service, I turn around to the sound of Marcos playing his rendition of Happy Birthday Keyla with his acoustic guitar and Hany looking like a dork holding a cake in  the middle of the temple. LoL After Ervin prayed I sliced the cake and we all ate.

Now, the plan WAS for them to take me out to Dave and Busters because my curfew WAS supposed to be extended to 1:00. But nooooo... that extension was meant for SATURDAY night not FRIDAY night! ARRGGGHHH!!!

For those of you who don't know, it is TRADITION in our youth group that when it's a youth leader's birthday we take them out to eat wherever they want after service. And on my own birthday I couldn't follow that tradition. I can't put into words how upset I was. Even my brother felt bad for me when I told him and he vowed, "DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT! NEXT YEAR WHEN YOU TURN 18 WE'RE BOTH GONNA DISSAPEAR FOR 3 DAYS!!!" LoL. That made me feel better. Stupid me, I was all upset in front of all the youth and so people were hesitant to come up to me and gimme cariñito. But in the end, we said my b-day outting would be a Sunday lunch after church. I'll accept that =) Hany and I took our usual "It's-too-late-to-do-anything-else" trip to Dunkin Donuts and then I was homebound. Although I was VERY pissed off I'm over it now. I'm not letting anything ruin my b-day! ::grinding teeth into a smile:: LoL

ONE MORE THING...
I'm no longer at All State. I know, how short of a job was that??? But it really wasn't a job! I was never working!!! This lady was so frusteratingly unprofessional it was driving me crazy. The main problem with getting a job through your parents, the boss won't take you seriously! So after a heated discussion with my mother, I retreat to my room so I can take my problems to God. After venting, I call Leslie and let her know that I've basically been booted from All-State. Right when I told her she says, "Hey, you know there was this guy that passed by my job the other day that was looking for an assistant to work at his physical therapy clinic in Miami Lakes." Miami Lakes? Clinic? Assitant? I'm there. So I called right away and Gregory, the boss, asks if I could pass by sometime before 7:30. Of course, I rushed over there and walk out with a new job =D God is so freakin amazing! I lost a job and got a new one in a matter of 2 hours! God knows why I wasn't suppose to work at All State. Point is, I have a better funner job now AND what a coincidence, my boss is Christian! That's when you KNOW it's God. So I'm the new assitant for the Physical & Sports Therapy Center in the Crypress Village Professional Building. I only work Mon.,Wed., and Fri. from  3-8. Not bad. Next week I start training. WOO HOO!

Ok, I think that's all for now. Everyone wish me a Happy Birthday!!! LoL!

So close and yet so far,
*::*KaY*::*

How embarassing, lol. I've written like a 3 page essay in response to a comment left on my previous journal entry. Really though, this could've been very short. But I found this guy's comment so intruiging I had to get deeper into it. If you have no idea what I'm talking about, I suggest you read the comments for the 4/20 entry. This might seem like gibberish to some and might not even make sense to a lot. I'm no philosopher but these are my deep thoughts. I have some of those too, you know =)

So you’re right religion is a blindfold. But to begin with, I really don’t consider myself a religious person, and I hate it when people do so. To some people Christianity becomes a religion: get up, go to church, go home, read the Bible, pray, etc., it’s like a routine. That’s not what it’s truly about. It’s about having a personal relationship. Nothing is forced on you and it’s up to you whether you choose to open your eyes or not.

Funny how you think I’m in the dark, because that’s where I feel you are, regardless of your "philosophy major”. Not too fond of Nietzsche. I was reading some of his philosophies and you might think I’m crazy but I found them to be somewhat naive. That’s right, close-minded as opposed to the open-mindedness you claim he offers. He seems like someone that wasn’t able to expand their thinking enough to consider the philosophy of someone else, someone who follows Christ. Their PHILOSOPHY, their way of life, their thinking and their valid reasons behind that, not the superficial crap Nietzsche thinks he knows about them, is what he needed to understand. You need to look into something before you shut it out. Otherwise you’re doing exactly what you’re denouncing.

God is not about shackling your mind, quite the contrary; it’s about liberating it enough so that it may reach the understanding of His power, your weakness and His grace.

How shallow to think that we are as good as it gets and that we don’t need anybody to help us out as if we are capable of it all on our own, lol.

 If you’re talking about freedom, then I’d like to ask you what trapped us in the first place. And don’t tell me, “the church” or “religion” because so many people that NEVER believed in that are searching today for something to “free” them, and they don’t know what. So they resolve to whatever their minds can grasp, whatever is at their reach, the pleasures of this world.

One more thing, “losing all hope is freedom”? If we lose all hope then what are we free to experience? People who choose to “live for today” seem pretty uninformed that there IS a tomorrow in which the outcome is affected by how you live today. So I would think hope IS what we live for. Are you getting me?

I’m really just going on and on. The truth is I have so much to say about that comment it’s hard to begin my response and nonetheless end it. Sadly, there is no simple response but a long chain of thoughts as you have seen. It’s something you have to experience on your own to understand. Point is, I don’t think I’m in the dark because God is my light and so therefore there I am, in the light. Jesus said to him, "I am the light of the world; he who follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life." John 8:12 =)

" I, therefore, the prisoner of the Lord, beseech you to walk worthy of the calling with which you were called..."  - Ephesians 4:1

That was the verse this person read at the beginning of the service. Oh but if they only would've read on they would've heard something that applies so perfectly to me at this very moment:

"...with all lowliness and gentleness, with longsuffering, bearing with one another in love, endeavoring to keep the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace. There is one body and one Spirit, just as you were called in one hope of your calling; one Lord, one faith, one baptism; one God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all." - Ephesians 4:2-6

Damn that's good! What I got from that was: part of being a Christian is BEARING with one another to keep the unity. That means... go 'head girl, I can take it.

*::*KaY*::*